About one month after going back to school, I started to miss my little bugger. And I could tell she was feeling it too. The two nights a week that I worked the closing shift were tough. Yes, I had applied and qualified for financial assistance to help with the cost of school and life in general, but it wasn’t enough for everything and I needed to work to offset the cost of life. She would cry and ask me not to go. It definitely pulled at my heart strings. I went to work sometimes feeling so guilty. I always felt the need to justify why I had to work. And by the time I reached my place of employment, I had reassured myself she was fine and playing with her daddy. Because we all know within ten seconds after I left, she was fine and I was the only one dwelling on things. My daughter and I are fairly close. Up until we both started school, we spent a lot of time together. We had decided as a family that I would stay home after maternity leave and work part time at night. It just made more sense for our family financially. But when we decided it was time to move out of our apartment and into a house, I had no choice but to head back to work full-time. Our daughter was almost three when this happened. She adapted well to the change and we were lucky enough to find a reasonably affordable child care provider, who also happened to be a friend of my hubby. Being apart during the days now was alright since she was so excited to go to school and there was so much to occupy her. But, at home she took notice to my absence. I knew it would happen. But, she would have to tough it out and get used to it. Perhaps we spent a little too much time together and this would serve as a good way to cut the cord, as they say. But for now, I am not sure who’s struggling with it more…me or her.
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Shauna QuinnNo stranger to taking the road less travelled, I must admit those not so great choices made me who I am and led me to where I am right now, which happens to be exactly where I am supposed to be. Archives
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